Sunday, December 17, 2017

Photographing the Hops Field




Stranded ankle-deep in snow,
the tall poles of the hops field
sketch runes on the winter sky.

Wind across the river bottom
aches with lonely ghosts exhumed
from brown and dog-eared histories.

Trying to snap a photo, I’m caught
in the breath of invisible worlds.
You hide your smile in the car

while I brace myself on absence,
my tough Norwegian sweater
armoring my vitals but leaving

my intellect exposed. The river,
sulking just beyond the field,
clings to its identity despite

the chill blown down from Canada.
The hills beyond look tired
of being hills, but lack volition.

In summer the hops grow
twenty-five feet up these poles.
They love the aerated valley soil,

rich and iron-red. Their bines
get plenty of support from rope
or wires, their ripe cones filling

with powdery gold lupulin.
You don’t care about the fine points
of growing hops and brewing beer

but prefer to face the low orange sun
and embrace its tender lessons.
The wind flicks little gouts of snow

dancing across the rutted slick.
As I take my photo I glimpse,
in the whorl of my bad eye,

a bit of ghost-green lingering—
an overlap of dimensions
that defines us despite ourselves.


Monday, November 27, 2017

Wapack Down




After I’ve walked up the auto road
the descent from Pack Monadnock
on the blue-blazed Wapack Trail
almost defeats me. Boulders
and scree, ledge and a trail marked

so poorly I almost tumble
down a hundred-foot gap in the sky.
Ice patches foster bone breaks,
while harsh November sunlight
casts shadows deeper than the eye

in its naked glory can plumb.
My skeleton revolts in its bag
of flesh. Muscles knot and suffer
a lack of elasticity.
The slope feels impractical,

as though the entire mountain
might sluice down to the highway
in a heap of gray apologies.
I don’t remember this trail
feeling so difficult underfoot,

but I haven’t plied it for years.
The last grave stretch of cliff-walking
confuses me so badly I lose
the string of blue blazes and doubt
I can bushwhack so grim a stretch

of bare and almost vertical ledge.
I retrace my steps and recover
the marked trail and stumble down
the last quarter-mile to the road
just as the sun retracts its favors

and allows a sheet of whispers
to slip over the leafless woods.
Tomorrow I’ll try ascending
this slab of primal geometry
by the same steep blue-blazed route.      

Then maybe I’ll recover myself
somewhere along the trail
where I left my youthful ego
cursing the icy rock and claiming
dominion it doesn’t deserve.


Friday, August 25, 2017

In the Wash of the Solar Eclipse




You want to know how I feel
in the wash of the solar eclipse?
Walking by the marsh I’m sure
the crickets are onto something.

Their song becomes more brittle
as sunlight fades and shadows
lose their edges. I feel like
joining their chorus, but rubbing

my legs together for sound
has never worked well, even
when wearing corduroy trousers,
so I’ll remain as silent as snow.

You want to know if doubts
about the depth of the universe
and the time lapse of galaxies
ruffle my dreams of women

lurching around on horseback
or sifting heaps of pages torn
from the world’s cruelest scriptures.
No, but last night I dreamt

that you asked my wife to bake
a cake that was evenly moist
with no raw spots in the middle.
Yes, I know you’re my wife

and also an expert baker,
but the threat of the eclipse
shaped this dream. What threat?
The loss of faith in sky gods?

Worry that the moon will stick
to the sun and extinguish it?
The dark surfs over the sky
with a stark and deep indifference                                    

that for a moment hushes
the crickets. Stars wink and blink,
out too early. I feel too small
to inhabit this expanded space;

but as the moment passes and light
ebbs back into our life I almost
taste the lovely cake you baked
to feed both my ego and id.